Fischer Evan

My youngest brother and Madison had their baby yesterday. Fischer Evan was two weeks and six days early. He weighed in at 8lb 7oz and was 21 inches long! He has what is called wimpy white boy syndrome his lungs were not completely developed and he has pneumonia. He had to be on oxygen for the past day. They took him straight from the delivery room to the NICU. Madison was not able to hold him until after 9:00 pm and she had him around 11:00 am. She still hasn't got to feed him and they can only visit a few times a day. She will go home from the hospital tomorrow and Fischer will have to stay there. They thought he would only be there for a day or two but now they are telling them next Wednesday. They got a little discouraged with that news. Please keep them in your prayers. Fischer will be fine but I know it must be tough for them to have to leave without him.

Weekend Away!

I get to go on a Girls Weekend Away this weekend. I'm going to OKC with four other girls from our Bible study group at church. I just found out about it this morning. One of the girls that were planning on going had to back out because of illness. I don't really know these girls very well but I guess that's why I need to go. I worry about leaving Jonathan with all three kids. When I get back on Sunday we have our small group at our house so that's kind of stressful. Jonathan promises to have the house looking like it looks when I leave. I don't think I have ever left my family for two nights. I'm kind of nervous.

We had a family reunion on Saturday. I thought this was a good picture except for the most photogenic person in our family (Jennah) looks a little out of it. Most of the time Jacksen has a really bad fake smile or Jonathan is trying to be funny and staring off somewhere. This time they looked good and Jennah was the goofy one. Oh well!

Latest Baby Shower

I have hosted so many baby showers in the past few years I have become very good at it. I

can throw a shower together in no time. Each shower is unique and very fun to do and I enjoy it very much. This last shower was for my little brother Sean and Madison they are having a baby boy named Fischer. This shower was fun because they are doing a cowboy theme. I have friend from Ft. Gibson that makes the best cookies I have ever had and she always decorates them so cute. I think these are my favorite so far.

I'm Back

I feel good. I think I am back to my normal self. Finally! As most of you that read my blog know the past seven months have been rough on us. Last October we finally decided to try for our last baby and got pregnant first try only to find out a couple of weeks later that I was miscarrying. It was really hard on me. I felt bad about feeling bad because we have three happy, healthy kids and some people don't get any. How could I be upset about that? I finally let myself grieve the lost and we decided to try again. This time took longer which was very frustrating. I can't imagine going through this for years trying to have a baby. I definitely have a new ache in my heart for women that have trouble having babies (that sounds odd but I have no other words that describe how I feel). Then finally I was nine days late. I took several test that came back negative but after some blood work we found I was pregnant but something wasn't right the numbers were abnormally low. Before I could get back in to the Dr. to do more testing I started to miscarry. This time I thought I was going to handle it better. I did for a week or two and then I broke down. I am better now. I thought this month would be really hard because this is when we would have delivered the first one, but I am handling it. I know it is because of prayers. So thank you to everyone who has been praying for us and thank you for all your kind words. I'm sure it wasn't the easiest thing to talk about. My Dr. is confident we will still be able to have a healthy pregnancy. Next time she wants to do some extra testing to make sure everything is right. That is if we decide we want to try again. It is a very scary thing to think about. So we still need prayers for that. I am so glad I feel better. So no more tears (hopefully). I am going to enjoy the life God has blessed me with and look forward to what ever God has planned for us now.